Shikhar Dhawan opens up about being 'blocked' from contacting son Zoravar, says it's been 2 years since they last saw each other: 'I'll cry with him if...'

On the ANI podcast, Dhawan, 39, opened up about how he deals with the painful separation from his son. "It's been two long years since I held my son in my arms, and it's been a year since I last heard his voice because I'm blocked from all communication channels. It's been incredibly challenging, but you find a way to carry on. I miss him every day, but I connect with him spiritually and find solace in that," he shared.

The left-handed batter, who retired from international and domestic cricket in August 2024, described how he uses affirmations and meditation to feel close to Zoraver.

“I feel through affirmations that I'm conversing with him every day, hugging him. I put my energy into it spiritually. It is the only way I can bring back my son. My sadness won't help. I manifest,” Dhawan expressed.

Dhawan's marriage to Aesha Mukherji ended in divorce in October 2023, with the cricketer losing custody of Zoraver. Despite being granted the right to connect via video calls, his ability to do so has been obstructed. Yet, he remains undeterred in his attempts to reach out.

"I already feel that I'm with him, speaking to him, playing with him. When I sit for my meditation, I visualize those things," he added. "My son is 11 years old now, but I have seen him for only two and-a-half years of his life."

'I would first hug him'

When asked what cricketing memories he would share with his son if given the chance, Dhawan's response was deeply emotional. "I would first hug him. I'll first spend time with him. Listen to what he has to say. Showing him any innings of mine is a thought that hasn't even occurred to me. I'll listen to him, know about him. Maybe if he tears up, I'll cry with him. I'll enjoy my time with him."

For Dhawan, cricketing milestones pale in comparison to his son’s well-being. “I want him to be happy and healthy. I still message him every three or four days even though I'm blocked. I don't expect him to read them. I don't mind if he doesn't read them, it is my job to reach out. I will keep doing it.”

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